Back to School

I've had no time to write in this, sorry, I know my life is so intresting! All and all it was the best summer of my life. I met my best friend, his name is Dan. He is the absolutly the coolest person in the world, no doubt about it! Well I better go I continue this later.
Well I'm back. My school year is going to be so easy, I'm even graduating early! Sweet!! I want to go to Western for school, but my parents are still looking in to it. I've pretty much decided on where I want to go, its the fact of persuading my parents to let me go. That should'nt be too hard. My parents think I want to go there because of Dan, hes going there also. It's a bonus let me tell you that! But thats not the reason I'm going there. Im going there for myself, it has the best LEJA (Law Enforcement and Justice Adminastration) department in IL. Im going to be a Criminal Procecutor. I cant wait! My parents can't get past that. She wants to talk to a bunch of judges and stuff, but in the end shouldn't it be my decition, I mean it's my life, and since they are paying for it they get to decide where to go! Bullshit!!! Grrrrrrrrr....That just makes me so mad. Anywho back to my summer and my new friends. I mey Gabi, she so nice, and she is very smart. She helps me through a lot, and she laughs really funny! Dan is the greatest person in the world. He has helped me through more than anyone combined. We are so close, nothing can seprate us. Well I'm gonna get outta here so I'll leave you with a quote or two that I came up with.

" The rope of true friendship can never be severed, not even by the blades of time." Nello Lucchesi

" You make life the way you want it, and that is your utopia" Nello Lucchesi

Simple Things With Deep Meanings

For the wind did blow,
across the plain old grass,
and young Johnny did not stir,
forlong has he not terried.

Nothing else moved,
but the plain old grass,
and nothing moved again,
for everything was torn and broken,

across the plain old grass.




A hard pitter-patter played it's tune on the roof.
The sky was dark and black as night.
Thunder rumbled, its tune fairly aloof,
lightning blinded all peoples sight.

When the sun finally shone through,
the grass was wet, as if with morning dew.

The trees raised their leaves,
to greet the morning sun.
The grass perked up, no a blade greves.
Spring was here, and winter was surely done.

Summer Days and Sour Magiritas

Summer is almost here, THANK GOD!! THis summer is going to be so cool. I'm gonna hang out with all of my friends and play videogames and swim in my pool in the hopefully hot weather! Cool cool cool. I can't wait. I'm gonna hang out with Angie, K.C., Lisa, Chris, Nicole, Andrew, Dan, Josh, Cody, Travis, Frank, Rick and John. I can't remember any more friends but if I forgot your name Im sorry.Anywho It's finally getting nice outside, yesterday it was jack crap shitty. My parents are slowly getting better, there being very and unusually nice to me. Me and my mom are going to see a movie today. Mabey I'm dying and I just don't know it. Ahhhh oh well. I hope it just gets better, getting worse would not be to much of a good thing. Things a week ago were so mush diffrent, I had to tip toe around my mother, now its kind of a freespace on a bingo board. Well happy summer.

Lake of Hope

I'd like to share a poem I wrote. Its about the largest hope found in the smallest things.


Darkness envelopes the night.
Leaves wrinkle with untouched fright.
There is no moon with it's lunar sight.
Long has it been since the break of light.

The clouds moan and break,
as if one drived in a stake.
The moons light was pulled into the black abyss,
making darkness fairly amiss.

Balls of light floated amongst the trees.
They travel on the faintest breeze.
They sprial around the forgoten limbs.
Balls of light dissappear and the light does dim.

One is left, the stray of the group.
He travels along the water in endless loop.
The dark water responds with a certian foresight.
The ball sinks in water and the lake explodes in light.

The pilar of light rises like a spike of pearl.
Then shades of azure start to unfurl.
The water turns turquoise blue.
The trees are awed by the beautiful hue.

The water again grows dark.
The light must have lost it's mark.
The ball of light again rises to the waters edge.
And dissappears into the thick green hedge.

Break Me

Break me, take me, make me, into anything... Such a cool line from a song. Prom was great. Its was so much fun. The night was full of tresures. The night lasts such a short time. I want to go back. But you never will you know. You just do it one time and thats it. There is no instant replays in life. You live with your mistakes and your choices. Sad that we only live one live. You cant do everything. We must only live one life and live it to the fullest, because if we dont we can't regret it, we will be dead by then. There are no more second chances. People live and die, they come and go. You will never really know that person that you passed by on streets in Chicago. That could of been that special someone, but you let the chance go. We can't go back. So make of what you have now. Because there will be no more.

Mmmmmm Donuts

I had to buy 6 dozen donuts for spanish class today. 32 bucks! Ack, lots of money. Yeah its friday!!! I get to go home and do nothing. I dont work today thank god. I would cry if I did. I get to go to a friends party tonight. I want to go ice-skating, but the spanish trip got canceled. Ahh crap. Oh well what can you do eh? My friend next to me is looking for a DVD called the band of brothers, and he can't find it. He's having a heart attack. That plus I won't give him a donut. Hehehehehe so funny. Im listening to some really cool music while I'm writing this. Hehehehe I love blogger, my friend Meggie is also on this. I have to give her my adress. She is funny too. Adam is being a moron and trying to talk to me through my headphones, I'm pretending to not hear what he is saying, but I really can. When someone says something really stupid just smile and nod. The reaction you get is pretty funny. Chorus is next hour. Ohhh that will be fun (gag). I wanna go home and play Final Fantasy. Im all for those games. You know the magic and swords and stuff. My favorite charactor ever is Quistis from final fantasy 8. Her weapon is a chain whip!! Hehehehe silly domanatrix. Now Adam is staring at some girl named Stephanie Dolon. She is pretty, I'll admit that. But you don't have to stare at her ass for 20 min! Wow this is defanitly one of my longer blogs. Im kinda just writing without noticing what Im writhing you ever get that feeling. Hmmmm what else. I hate creative writing class. We have to have a 5 page play done by today. I'm on like act 4. Yeah Im gonna have to turn that in Monday. Ohhh well what can you do eh? My "friend", well I guess you could call her my friend, were a little bit closer than that, Jill got her promission slip signed for prom, I cant wait to go. It will be so much fun. Well anyways about tonight we're, me and the birthday girls friends that is, are supposed to go to a movie. That should be fun. Oh yeah thats right, My friend Tiffany got suspended yesterday because some guy pulled down her pants and then she started beating him up. Well she pulled down his pants a month ago. But she was wearing a thong. They both got suspended, I think he deserved to but not her. Wow I'm pretty much just rambnling. Hahahaha Adams stuck on the same geometry problem since he started 10 min ago, hahaha now hes counting on his fingers! hehehe silly Adam. Im in Calculus, and Ill be 18 in Nov. Yes I cant wait. Well I think I'll leave it at that. Wow that was really long, well I'll see you next week! See ya!

A half hour to go

I have a half hour to go and nothing to do in this period. Ack so boring. I feel better since I wrote my last blog. Ack still bored. There is this guy thats sitting in front of me rating the way some girls look on the internet. He kind of weirding me out. Hes really ugly and has pimples all over his face. Weird people are funny. I wonder how Angies doing. Oh I can't wait for friday to come. I get to go ice skating with my spanish class. My friend Kelly is coming with me. Not very many friends are going, but nevertheless I will have fun and enjoy it. Well I guess I'll read other peoples blogs for the next 25 minutes. See ya!

Bad Day

Have you ever had those bad days where nothing ever goes right? Yeah kind of like today. I was kinda dragged out and long. My parents are haveing a hard time getting along. I fear something is coming over that black horrizon. My friends are fighting, and Angie is kind of pissed off. You can tell that she is even though she dosn't show it. Liz kind of yelled at me but I don't take that too serriously. Me and her haven't talked in a while. School is slipping down a black hole. So many people make fun of me.They all think that I'm gay or something. Why do I have to be me? There are few friends that I can trust now. It's hard being me. I know I must sound like a hippocrit or something but I'm not. This is the way my life is. No one takes me serriously anymore. They all think I can't defend myself. Well I show them. I'm skinny and all yeah but that has nothing to do with it. Somethings comming.

Beautiful Girl

I've just asked the most beautiful girl to prom. She said yes. Of course I was expecting her to say no. This day seems like some kind of dream. Its odd how things like this can change with a blink of an instant. When the words seemed to flow out of her mouth, it was like sweet surrender enveloped me and swirled around my body. Wow that was a whole bunch of blah blah blah! Hehehe. I'm in a really good mood now. My pre clac test was not so bad either. The 2nd top of the class, of course the top of the class got a 81%. I got a 76%! Thts not good but its better than an F. I have to go to work today, and my prom date Jill is coming to visit me. I (this my sound bad) don't know her last name!Hahaha, what is wrong with me? I got a haircut yesterday, I look smooth and sexy......right! Well I have to go so see ya! Yay Nellos in a good mode! Get it I'm on a computer, bah dum ching! God am I a dork!

Deep Depression


Life is kinda of hard huh? One minute your up next your down. People are so confusing sometimes. Why would you go out of your way just to go and dis someone? Is it really that up-lifting? Depression is a dark, deep black abyss. You just fall deeper and deeper, sprialing endlessly towards oblivion. All hope is lost, you just fall, deep, dark and alone. The black winds raping you of all hope. The only person who can get you out is yourself. You can't rely on other people all of your life. You just have to crawl out of it. Or if you can, grow wings of light to drench the darkness, and fly out. Mabey people dont like you, mabey someone pushed you into this dark hole, where nothing can live and nothing exists. You must be full of hope, not despair. Grab on to the ledge and don't leat fear consume you. Destory despair in its place. This hellish place is not permanant, you have the choice to get out on your own. Or let go of everything you've done and plummet into the onyx haze. Death will never await you on the bottom. Depression is a contempary prison that you have the key to. Sucide is the whipy way out. Painful, hopeless, shameful and sickening. That dark road shouldn't even be a last resort. You would rather fall than find out what awaits you when you walk that path. Disinagrate darkness with its natural weakness....the light of hope. Don't lose your sight of it......and never cast it away.

Always, remember...........my words